I didn’t want to wake up..didn’t want to open my eyes.

I was dreaming. It was so nice, the air was warm, Ryou and I were standing together in a sea of clouds, My arms around his waist, his head against my chest, watching stars shoot across the sky as though playing a Celtic melody just for us. I wanted to stay there so badly. I didn’t want to wake up to the harsh reality of life.

I was a loser..

I opened my eyes, expecting to still be in that dark alley, laying there on the cold pavement. But what I saw when my vision focused were the familiar walls of my room. Lit only by the sunrise through the window, I was confused, how did I get home?

I slowly moved to sit up, looking at the bandages that adorned my body, It hurt to move-

Over on my couch, I saw a familiar shape. A familiar warmth. Ryou– He had stayed by my side the entire time. He was curled up in an insecure ball, his tail covering his legs. I had to go to him.

I slid off my bed to my feet, almost falling but catching myself on the bed, my mother would have a fit if she saw me...”Insen you need to rest” she would say. I can rest later. I had to make sure he was alright...

Once I was standing in front of Ryou I relaxed. He was alright.. He wasn’t hurt. We both made it out alive. Carefully I laid behind him, in-between him and the back of the couch. All I wanted..was to hold him. I didn’t care about the pain. I gently wrapped my arm around him and held him close to me. Savoring his warmth, his smell how, soft he was.

All that was important to me was in my arms. Anything that mattered, I was holding. Together we were going to go back to the dreamland.

Together–we could make it through anything.

No matter what anyone says, what anyone thinks- I want to be with Ryou forever. I want to dream with him. I want to be able to hold him. He’s all I need to survive. All I need to keep going. All I want is him.